MESaturday, June 18, 2005
well.....hav juz realized sumting......actuali a few tings.....
1stly, i realized how much i miss him....n 2moro is the special dae 4 him....its been almoz 8 yrs tt i've nt celebrated tis special dae.......hai....wad can i do......i cried wen tinkin bout how lucky 4 others hu hav him....well it started of wen i rmembered bout 2moro n after watchin simpson......im nt sure wen i will hav the chance to do the same ting as wad others may 4 2moro....maeb it wasnt meant to b......maeb i was neva meant to hav him....maeb i was neva meant to hav his luv......his luv of 7 yrs wasnt enuf....i envied others ard me hu hav him......they wud b showered wif tings,luv,care n moz of all a complete family....regardless to sae..they r lucky.....i still hav many yrs ahead of me....n the yrs wud b left wif unfulfilled luv..a spot tt i wud neva replaced wif any luv.....a spot tt is reserved especially 4 him....
to him: even though u didnt took care of us well....u r still mine...even the greatest mistakes tt u hav done...i hav forgive u.....i cant hate u any longer......its juz wrg...without u i wont even b alive......i reallie apreciate the luv u gave me 4 tt 7 yrs...u still luv me even though u were nt reallie faithful.....u wud hug,caress n even carry me in ur arms.....i miss those tym... i wish i cd c u 4 one last tym....if onlie i cud.....it wud b my greatest wish......yet it will neva b fulfilled.....juz wanna let u noe....l reallie luv u......
2ndly: i juz realizes tt i can do wadeva i want to....i can fulfilled my likings my passions....i mean....the klikings n passion tt i hav might b costly n seems nt feminine....but wad he heck n i want to....isit wrg to learn playing the drums????isit wrg wanting to ride a bike??? i dun c y i cant do all tt.....plz...giv me the chance to do wad i lyk...i begged of u.....4 the 1st tym..i wan to do sumting i lyk....plzzz.....
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i dun get y ppl cant rmemeber me....am i so easily to b 4gotten....do i juz perished frm their thoughts after sumtyms???? i dun ask 4 aniting...i juz wan them to rmember me, to rmember our frenship....tts all...nth dificult....i didnt ask dem to rmember the deeds or sins tt i hav done 2wards dem...i dun nid anitin else frm dem...i juz nid dem to rmember me....plzz...dun ever 4get me...cos i will neva 4get anione hu is my fren.....i dun wan to lose any of my frens.....
the point of me sayin all tis is bcos tis is wad i feel....if i hadnt talk to tt person if i hadnt meet tt person...the person wud juz 4get bout me until the next tym they c me...well.....i cant do aniting bout it....juz hav to take it n keep quiet n act as if all is ok......
tts all
p.s: to all....im sorie if i've done aniting wrg or hurtful to u guys.....i dun mean it....dun take it to hard ok...im sorie even 4 the slightest tings..... sorie again.......
``Purpledramaqueenmadness ; 12:36 AM
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