MESunday, December 18, 2005
hey...i hav no idea where my previous post wen to...i tink it dcided to play hide n seek wif me forver..xcept tt it is hiding foreva...get it??? it means...i hav no idea where it is...maeb dleted it by mistake..hmph...waste my tym typing..muahahhaah...
niwaez...too summarize up the previous post tts gone in thin air..well,juz sayin sry to all....
im confused right nw..maeb i reallie hav to tink 1st....well,did abit of tinkin...n i tink tt..im holdin on bcos of my family...tt shud b it...n juz tt the feeling is too strg...i juz nid my frens ryte nw...to help me clear my messed up head....n i nid sum1 reallie badly...hmm....i noe others hav probs too...so0o,let me juz keep it to myself after tis...i mean the matters of my heart will b kept within me frm nw on...i dun wan to make other feel sad,sorry or even pity me....its juz nt ryte....they hav their own probs....
i've been selfish all tis while...tinkin tt my frens r here by my syd...to listen to all my probs..but im nt listening to theirs...im nt such a gd fren i gues...
well tt gonna change.....
im gg to settle my probs all by myself....juz taking advice frm those hu i am close wif...n better still..i will help my frens in nid.....wudnt tt b juz perfect....
so...bout yest....after telling him evrieting...i felt light...but...sumting feels weird....i dunnoe...felt down..but den aftr havin a few jokes wif my darlz..i felt better..n evrieting juz went away.....hmm...was i right bout my feelings?? im reallie confused nw....sumtyms i feel as if my heart is empty.....sumtyms its filled wif memories of his luv....sumtyms it filled wif hatred towards him....i hav no idea.....
n im confused too...realli confused.....hmm...i guess i juz nid sum tym off....away frm others..away frm all the busy roads...away frm the city....maeb i nid atrip down to the beach....if onlie i cud.....
oh yarh...btw,i dunnoe y..but im having doubt wif him....as i had said...its difficult 4 me to trust guys...n its difficult 4 me to trust ARN to..sry dear...juz tt im scared of even losing sum1 hu i am closed too....maeb u r ryte...u r here to help me 4get bout him
hmm...juz realized syumting...all my post is about me n him me n ex me n hu ever..me lyk sum1 me in lurve...blah blah blah.....well,tis is the onlie probs tt i can tell u guys..the rest of my probs r juz too personal 4 me to broadcast it on 'air'........
well....
to nadie: hey darl...sorie aites 4 evrieting...didnt mean to hurt u or aniting.....i luv u ...u noe tt ryte.....we've been reallie close since last yr....u noe we neva go anywhere w/o each other in sch..tt wud b the same...i mean...even though we wudnt mit up tis hols or aniting...u will owaez b in my heart....well,let me b honest here....i hav no idea y i didnt ask u along...maeb its bcos i was tinkin twice...i hav tis mindset tt u cant go anywhere w/o hafiz....sry gal...but its juz the way tt i tout....if its nt true im sry...but i reallie luv u kae dear...missing u owaez....reallie sry.....we r wrg.....u r nt.....niwaez....miss u alot....luv u kae darlz...muackz......
i wont b blogging frm 23 to 27...gg of on a holiday trip...weee.....
``Purpledramaqueenmadness ; 1:16 PM
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