MY MEMORIES
Friday, December 09, 2005
frm the title...yupz...my family dun agree of other guys being close wif me...hu do they prefer ...him....onlie him...yes i admit...i still do hav feelings 4 him...but im trying hard to get over it...cos he is reallie moving on...he is sailing smoothly..whereas im on a bumpy road....full of obstacles....niwaez..
wad did my family say....
my aunt" ayu..ko nk kwn ngan bdk lelaki mane blh...tapi jgn rpt sgt seme tk btol...seme tk mcm zai...."
my grandma"ko nie...tk abez2 nk mataer...dulu dah dpt kan yg bgus....si zai...ko uat endah tk endah...dah terlepas die kan skrg...die tu bdk baek..."
my aunt n grandma"mama ngan nenek suke btol ngan zai tu...klau ko balek ngan die smule...kite mesti very happy....."
my sis" klau ko balek ngan die aku ktawe dulu...nmpk sah jodoh...actuali mmg dah proven gak arh...muke krg mmg same...tkkan ke mane..."
so....to summarize tis up i am unable to accept anione 4 nw...my head is in a mess....
my feelings r confused.....i onlie noe dat i nid my darlingz now..i tink i still lyk him...i tink i dun...but do hav the strg feeling stilll but...haiz...i dunnoe.....onlie this lines will say evrieitng to wad im feeling ....
fate,show thy force;ourselves we do not owe.
what is decreed must be,and be this so.
let juz put evrieting to fate...if it is meant to be it is meant to be....
well, i juz hav tis last few werds 4 tis entry tt is 4 him....i still rmember wad u say to me..wad our plan was....n all the promises....its all kept deep in my mind...
u may find tis weird or wadeva...but its reallie pressurizing if u were in my shoes...juz imagine if u were nt allow to hav other relationship cos ur family dun allow u to do so...all other guys r nt suitable....wont u find it hard to 4get bout ur ex....wont it b hard 4 me to 4get bout u...to keep the feelings dat i hav far frm me....tt is y the feelings r still strg......
``Purpledramaqueenmadness ; 9:20 PM
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