MESaturday, January 12, 2008
back to blogging....
stress up.... f*cked up.... tts all i can say... smtyms i just want to take a brk from everyone xcept for tt one person...
anyways, do u blieve in fate? its sumting tt u cnt xplain on hw it werks...
lyk how one of my fren says...fate is sometig tt u cant xplain..n how fate brings two people togetha...
he's been living opposite my school for 19 yrs... wen i was in still schooling der for 4 yrs...he's been there all dis while... we just didnt meet each other wen we r close... lets just say... we r so0o closed yet soo0o far... haha.... but its just weird and unexplainable how we cud in the end get to noe each other...n he is still living in tt same house wen i was having tt oh-so0o-boring-so0o-we-decided -to hav-our-own-fun camp...just imagine all the din tt i make at his blk...the meet ups wif my ex-es at his void deck...hahah....dang.... i guess if i had open my eyes even more i wud hav noticed hi earlier..but tt wud nt b the same anymore.. cos i wnt b as close to him lyk nw..n...fate werks in an incredibly unxplainable manner...if tt incident of his really did take place, i guess i wouldnt even get to noe him...well, he is my listener... he always help to hear out my probs..n listen to wad i hav to go tru... just sitting down and talking with him makes me feel at ease.. looking at his face just make me smile and sumtyms make me forget bout all d tings tt i hav to go tru... i lied to him yest... i told him i cnt look at his eyes cos im uncomfortable.. n i cn only look at sum1 in his eyes if he is a fren whom i noe for a very long tym... i lied to him..i cnt get myself to tell him d truf bout it... in actual fact its d opposite...if only he knows tt i cnt look at him cos im used to it.. but if i look at tt person in his eyes.. n i cn do it lyk a long tym..it means another ting... but i cnt tell him tis... i cnt... so0o anyways... me n tis fren of mine r just fren-based... its just tt i cn share evryting n aniting to him..
quoting from him... u r a problem solver for others.. ; u r a tortoise.. believe in urself bn dun care bout others..
i owaes tell n dvice other people to nt care for wad other peole say..but im dointhe same ting..but nt bcos my slef-esteem is low...its bcos tt i dun want to hurt others....
well,,yes i am..but i dun solve my own problems? i just dun lyk to share wif others unless im very comfortable wif them or i just feel tt he/she is sum1 tt cn b a goodlistener n tt i wnt trouble he/she wif my probs...
niwaes... i feel lyk running away from evriting..sumtyms i feel tt i nid to go sumwhere alone with a gd company by my side...whereby both of us just keep quiet n look at the stars n feel d breeeze of d wind... lyk yest nyte...thx kyo...
``Purpledramaqueenmadness ; 11:52 AM
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